I’ve let go so many times
I’ve looked away
Turned away
Walked away
Each time I let go
I came back
Like I could almost
Hear his voice
Sometimes gently
Sometimes not so gently
Guiding me back
I’ve wondered about endless riddles
Gone in tireless circles
Until what was and what wasn’t
Ceased to matter
All I was left with was a feeling:
He would never hurt me
He would keep me safe
I’ve let go so many times
And I’ve held on
Just one more time
Than I’ve let go.

-Vanessa Hernandez