I’ve held on to a feeling

For so long

It’s no longer a memory

It’s a vestigial phantom

The disappearance of this feeling

Gnaws at the edges of my heart

As if without this feeling

My heart may quiver and shrink.

I held on to the feeling

of a man caring about me

Without any recent tangible irrefutable proof

I trusted the universe

That a feeling can rearrange my reality

I placed my faith

In my character and his

I found solace in my feeling

Until recently–

Today my heart is skeptical

This feeling has eroded

Leadenly my spirit